* The Fairytale of Pandagirl *

Friday, August 27, 2004

wAnnA hiDe

i had a major quarrel with my parents.. sigh.. i always have little arguements with ny parents, but this time, it's really damn SERIOUS.. now i'm like a lost kitten, stranded outside... loitering around with nowhere to go... i can feel that this time they are super angry with me... also, i have do not wish to see their face.. cuz seeing them, i'll feel so guilty of the things i've done.. guilty of how i've hurt them and dissappoint them again and again..

i've always been a very independent gurl who don't rely on my parents.. i dont turn to them when i'm facing troubles.. i dont talk to them when i'm down.. sometimes, i dont even go home at all.. i know they care about me.. but i still carried on with my own life in the way i want.. "that's why my life is in a mess now"

i'd done things that dissappointed them in the past... and now, i did it again.. and they found out... i know they are extremely dissappointed with me.. i'm not they innocent, pure little gurl anymore le.. i think they're realli realli hurt.. but no used crying over spilled milk.. what's done cannot be undone... i'm now stilll in a dilemma.. i'm still trying to make a decision... everyone seems to telling me to decide in the 'same' way.. but what i want is the other way.. what should i do...??? if i listened to them.. my life would be the same... nothing will change.. but if i choose to go my way, my entire life will be totally changed... maybe change foe the better... maybe worst.. no one know?? should i take the risk??? i'm so lost...

if can, i really hope i can dig a hole and hide from this decision forever....

*This fairy tale ended at 3:40 PM*

Thursday, August 26, 2004

wIshing uPon thE stArs

Do our wishes realli come true when we wish upon a star?

If everyone wishes upon shooting stars, wouldn't the star be burden with billions and countless number of wishes..?

sAd to say that i've never seen a shooting star before.. i dunno in reality how pretty they are.. but i heard they are realli beautiful.. hmm.. hope so see one one day.. hope to see it with the one i love... then i'll wish sincerely upon that shooting star: " why do beautiful things always have to come to an end? why must flowers wilt? why muz butterflies die? why do sunrise and sunset last only for a moment? why do life come to an end eventually? why are beautiful promises being brokened? and why do you, shooting star, vanish so fast? why do love comes to an end? i wish for all beautiful things and things i treasure to last forever..." hopefully the star would make my wish come true..

*This fairy tale ended at 2:52 PM*