* The Fairytale of Pandagirl *

Saturday, July 30, 2005

Hmm.. It's been a week since i last blogged.. Miss me? *grins*

Time really flies.. So fast it's Friday already.. *sighs* My holiday ended le.. But i haven slack enough wor.. haha.. What to do.. I'm looking forward to the next holiday already.. When is it? Beats me.. Hopefully it comes soon.. *dreaming*

*This fairy tale ended at 11:01 AM*

Friday, July 22, 2005

P.O.P.

Stress.. Recently my name keep poping out in "someone" blog.. Who ar? The "someone" should know who she is la, "Lin JunJie"..!! haha.. Got the hint? haha.. My name first appeared under her list of people whom she'd like to see wearing pants.. Somemore, i'm the only name under this list. *stress* I got wear pants de hor.. though very seldom.. wahah.. When play bball got wear bball shorts de hor.. Also is considered pants lor.. haha.. After reading her blog, the next day i wore shorts to school.. wahaha.. I got wear shorts de hor, "Lin JunJie"..!!! *lol*

Went for Wenzhong's P.O.P. today wor.. Been waiting so long for this day le.. Finally it's here.. *smiles* Hmm.. At first, i had a hard time trying to identify him from so far.. Somemore, everyone looks alike in uniform and the police "cap" thingy (forgot wat it's called =p) But eventually manage to identify him, after squinting my eyes and observing.. haha.. The parade was fine i guess.. A new experience for me, cause this is my first time attending a P.O.P... keke..

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Took quite some pictures and a few videos of the parade.. keke.. It's a fun and new experience and i enjoyed myself.. keke.. Best thing is that i no longer need to wait until weekend to see him le.. Can see him everyday le.. Can hug him everyday.. Can kiss him everyday.. And can sleep beside him everyday le.. *Big Smile*

*This fairy tale ended at 2:53 PM*

Wednesday, July 20, 2005

带着微笑付出

在爱情里，付出是对的，但是带着眼泪付出，那就是错的。

为什么要带着眼泪付出？带着微笑付出才有价值。

眼泪总有流干的一天，那个时候，你会恨他，你会抱怨他从来没有爱过你。

爱情总得两厢情愿，男人有时太婆媳，既仁慈也残忍，他看见一个女人带着眼泪不断付出，他会心软，不忍心叫她走，但是，带着眼泪的付出，是一个沉重的担子，他会与她共度余生，同时又抱怨她令他失去许多东西。

带着眼泪付出的人并不聪明，她只想得到回报，她是自私的，想用眼泪来逼对方就范。如果不需要回报，就该带着微笑付出。

带着微笑付出，那是最幸福的一种付出。是的，他就是这样子，永远改不了臭脾气，永远那么冲动，但是我接纳他所有的缺点，我愿意带着微笑付出，因为微笑，我才了解爱情。

*This fairy tale ended at 11:49 AM*

Sunday, July 17, 2005

fishball noodles

Woke up at 9 plus this morning.. *yawns* Then we washed up and prepared to go down to Bugis.. Haha.. All because i wanna eat the fishball noodles there.. My friend told me the fishball noodles there very nice plus the fishball damn big de.. So i told Wenzhong i wanna go eat.. Haha.. I thought he would say no cause he dislike the long travel.. Surprisingly, he agreed wor.. Somemore he say he'll go whereever i wanna go.. *smiles*

Yups.. We found a fishball noodles shop there but the fishball didnt turn out as big as i expect it to be.. *disappointed* After eating, then we found out we actually went to the wrong stall.. (ooppss..) The one with the big big fishball is just right beside the one where we ate.. *sighs* I'm so blur..~! Sorry, dear.. =p

Then we just shop around.. Dunno why today both of us are so lame.. haha.. Keeps saying and doing lame things.. haha.. I think i'm getting lamer and lamer le.. Must be because of the influence of my group 12 babes, danni and my dear.. *stress* Nevertheless, everything felt so sweet.. Love the way he held on to my hands no matter where we are.. Love the way he stroke my hair when i feel sleepy.. Love the way he touch my face every now and then.. *big smile* Even when we're on the cab on our way back, he stilll held on to my hands, stoking my fingers so gently while i leaned on his shoulders to rest.. *smiles* Plus he said 'i love you' to me alot of times and called me laopo wor.. keke..

I'm really contented with this kind of life.. Dear, this would last forever de right.. *smiles*

*This fairy tale ended at 10:21 AM*

Saturday, July 16, 2005

A Girl

She was a girl who affected my life alot.. But yet i've never seen her in real person before.. Today was the day i first saw her.. Frankly speaking, i've never thought that i would see her face-to-face, neither do i want to see her.. Don't misunderstand that i hate her or what.. I don't hate her, but it's just that i don't wish to see her..

I don't know how to describe the feelings i had when i saw her.. Perhaps it's a feeling of uneasiness.. I just feel weird.. Can't descibe the feeling.. *stress* Moreover, i was with him when we saw her.. So arkward.. Feel like digging a hole to hide myself.. I almost felt like letting go of his hand and running away.. But he placed my hand on his arm firmly.. I tried to act as if i was calm.. But inside, weird feelings were suffocating me..

Though the incident had already been over for quite a long time le.. Everything now is quite settled and peaceful.. I'm happy with my life now.. But, sometimes it's hard to forget some things from the past.. Unless one day i suddenly have an accident and lose my memories.. *shrugs* I guess just let nature take it's course ba.. Hope that these memories i dun wish to remember will fade as time goes by..

Right now, i just wanna look forward with him.. No more looking back.. I just want to fulfill my dream and stay with him forever..

*This fairy tale ended at 2:16 PM*

Friday, July 15, 2005

*relieved*

This has been a really busy week.. Web Design assignment 1 due on wed, Creative Process assignment 1 due on fri and for Digital Sound and Video (DSNV), we gotta show our 2nd mock up for the mtv thingy.. *sighs* Anyway, i'm glad my web design and cp assignment are handed up already.. *relieved* Have a good rest, my group 12 babes.. Can see that most of us are having dark circle under our eyes due to the burning of midnight oil.. Catch some sleep okie.. *smiles*

Tomorrow gotta continue working on my DSNV assignment.. Rather fun actually.. haha.. Creating my own music video.. I've chosen the midi of Love me by Collin Raye(nice wor~!) As for the images, i'm using clips of couples together.. Starting from two small kids kissing and to adulthood and eventually ended with an old couple handing hands and strolling by the seaside.. So sweet.. keke.. Anyway, this assignment is due next friday.. Hope i can finish it in time wor..

So looking forward to next week.. Cause next thursday will be Wenzhong's passing out parade le.. Can go see him doing his rifle drills.. Oh yeah.. He said he's going to show me the baby of one of his friend.. I wanna see.. One month old only.. Must be very cute de.. *smiles* Then friday he'll be having a one day holiday.. hehe.. Can ask him to go out and play with me le.. *smiles*

Also, next week is the last week of school before our 1 week semester break.. Though it's only a short one week.. Better then nothing.. haha.. I could use the one week break to get some rest and have some fun.. Yippee.. No worries, no burning of midnight oil and no killing of brain cells to get ideas for assignments for one week.. And the best thing is i can wake up as late as i want to (ooppss.. i think i sound like a pig..) *sticks out tongue*

Omg.. I'm so looking forward to next week.. And my one week holiday on the following week.. *big smile*

*This fairy tale ended at 12:01 PM*

Saturday, July 09, 2005

Blood Donation

I've done a good deed today wor.. *big smile*

Went to donate blood today with Danni.. We waited for 2 long hours then our turn came lor.. Then gotta go through some registration where they keyed in our personal information.. Blah blah blah.. Next we preceed to another counter for some medical screening.. Measuring heartbeats, blood pressure and temperature.. The doctor say my blood pressure low wor.. *stress* I thought i very fit de.. How come blood pressure low? *stress* I was told to get some sweet drinks before i could donate blood..

Finally, it's my turn to donate blood de.. Rather scared at first.. My palm were sweaty and i felt so cold lying down on the bed thingy.. At first they couldn't find my veins.. The nurse said my veins to small le.. haha.. But eventually the nurse found my vein after increasing the pressure and squeezing my arm here and there.. -.-''' I was first given an anesthetic injection (it hurts).. Then they poke a needle into my vein and started drawing my blood.. The process took about 10 minute.. I tried to look away cause the sight of the packet getter fuller and fuller with my blood send chills down my spine.. Eek..

I felt relieved when the process is finally over.. The nurse asked me how i was feeling cause she say she heard me gasping for air.. (is it..? i didn't notice..) Then i was given a blue bandage with car patterns on it.. *smiles* The bandage is so cute.. Keke..

*This fairy tale ended at 12:54 PM*

Friday, July 08, 2005

Common Names: Baby's Breath, Gypsophila, Gyp
Botanical Name: Gypsophila, (jip-SOF-i-la)
Vase Life: 5 to 7 days.
Storage Temperature: 36 - 38 F
Description: Bunches of complex branches filled with dozens of tiny florets.
Colors: White. Pink is available, but uncommon.
Botanical Facts: Gypsophila comes from the Greek for "gypsum-loving" in reference to the plants favoring of high calcium soils.

Floral meaning: Pure of heart; purity; innocence. Promise of love.

Baby's Breath (Gypsophila) is my favourite flower.. It's name in chinese is 'man tian xin' which means a sky full of stars.. A beautiful name for a beautiful flower.. They are never the main as the character in a bouquet, however, i still fell in love with this flower the first time i saw it when i was in primary school.. It was love at first sight when i saw a bouquet of flowers at a flower shop.. I could still remember the bouquet was made up of red Roses, Forget Me Nots and Baby's Breath.. I dunno why i was captivated by the beauty of Baby's Breath even when they are not as eye-catching red Roses or purple Forget Me Nots.. I fell in love with this flower..

I first received a bouquet of Baby's Breath two years ago on my birthday.. *smiles* Wenzhong is the first man who gave me a bouquet of my favourite flowers.. I was so happy when i received it.. Though many may think they look plain, in my heart, that was the prettiest bouquet i've ever seen.. They really look like stars, so beautiful and pure..

Baby's Breath symbolises purity.. And it also means promise of love.. To me, it is my promise of love to him..

*This fairy tale ended at 10:17 AM*

Wednesday, July 06, 2005

His Dream

Went swimming today with Peiwen, but i didnt get much tan.. *shakes head* Nevertheless, i had a great time catching up with her, chatting about so many things.. It has been a long long time since i last saw Peiwen le.. Then i went to school to meet my babes for lunch.. Saw Junjia outside FJ.. haha.. Back in secondary school me, junjia and peiwen were really close de.. Always going out together and doing so much fun and crazy stuffs together.. I miss those days so much.. haha.. Hope we'll have more chances to meet up wor.. *smiles*

After lunch, Karen, Ain, Jiawan and me went to the mac lab to do out DSNV assignment 2.. Omg.. i had a hard time figuring out how to use Final Cut Pro.. (ooppss.. i think i've be sleeping during my DSNV lesson..) haha.. And i have a complain to make.. Why Final Cut Pro programme can only be installed in Macintosh? So few people actually owns a Mac computer lor.. Created so much trouble for us cause we can only use the programme in school.. Somemore, the Mac computers in our sch is not enough to cater to all the DMD students who are rushing to complete the assignment that's due this week.. We left the Mac lab at around 6.30pm cause there'll be a lesson going on soon.. *shrugs*

Chatted with zhong on the phone just now.. Then his bunkmates were disturbing him.. Kept hearing "fangfang~! fangfang~!" in the background.. *stressed* haha.. Makes my goosebumps stands.. haha.. Not used to hearing my name being called so many times.. *stick out tongue*

Anyway, had a great time talking with him about overseas trips.. He was telling me about his travels to Korea, Japan and HongKong in the past.. Though i've heard him talk about this alot of times le, but i was never sick of hearing the things he did overseas.. Skiing, playing with snow, travelling in hot air balloon and helicopter.. *envious* I also wanna go..! *pouts*

Then he was talking about his dream.. haha.. Buying a car and then we'll travel all over the world together.. We'll drive around and explore places of interest.. Getting close to wild-life and going to many many different type of places.. Going museums, then he said i could bring along my art materials and draw the things i see in the different places and he'll watch me draw.. *smiles* Then i think we would need one whole year to travel all over the world ba.. haha.. but like what he said,"first, gotta win toto first to get the money la.." haha..

It's good to have dreams and dream big, cause your dreams will be your motivation.. I'll be waiting for you dream to come true de.. cause i wanna travel all over the world with you.. Trying new things, seeing things i've never seen, learning cultures i've never experienced and exploring places where i've never been to.. *smiles* At the same time, i'll be waiting for my own dream to come true too.. *big smile*

*This fairy tale ended at 12:58 AM*

Tuesday, July 05, 2005

crying in the rain

Last night, i dreamt that i was crying in the rain.. It's so dark everywhere.. I couldn't see anything at all.. The rain was beating hard against my skin.. I felt so cold, as if i was naked.. I could taste my own tears.. I was crying so badly in agony and pain.. And i was all alone..

Sighs.. Why am i having such dream? I can still recall the pain and agony and helplessness i felt in the dream.. What is this dream trying to tell me?

*This fairy tale ended at 12:14 PM*

Friday, July 01, 2005

Dreams

"It's not enough to have a dream, unless you're willing to pursue it.. It's not enough to know what's right, unless you're strong enough to do it.. It's not enough to learn the truth, unless you also learn to live it.. It's not enough to reach for love, unless you care enough to give it.. People who are determined to find a way for themselves will always find opportunities to make their dreams come true; and even if they do not find them, they will make their dreams come true themselves."

Someone once said to me, "You're such a dreamer, but isn't it unpractical? Dreams are what you have when you're asleep, it'll never come true in reality." I replied, "Dreams do come true, that's what i always believe. As long as i believe in my dreams and pursue it, one day i'll make my dream a reality."

I always believe that dreams are which the mind conceives, the heart desires, and the soul believes.. Since that's what i desire, i should believe in myself and my dream, and strive to make my dream come true.. *smiles* I know i'll find my happiness when my dreams come true.. So, i'll never give up.. haha.. (dun say i'm stubborn wor, i'm just a very determined girl who know what i want.. haha..)

*When you miss me just look up to the night sky and remember, I'm like a star; sometimes you can't see me, but I'm always there.*

*This fairy tale ended at 8:37 AM*