* The Fairytale of Pandagirl *

Sunday, December 25, 2005

MERRY CHRISTMAS~!!!

It's coming to the end of 2005 already.. Time really flies.. It seems like only yesterday when i celebrated last new year.. haha.. I seemed so old already.. Gonna be 20 very in a few more months time.. So hope that i could remain young forever and never grow up..

Growing up is such a tough process.. There's so many things that we have to go through and life is getting more and more complicated.. If only time could stop at those innocent times where life is so simple.. *dreaming* I think i'm dreaming and fantasizing more and more often then usual.. If only those dreams and fantasies would come true.. *smiles*

Haha.. Okay.. I should be blogging about what happened today.. A tiring day.. Slept late on friday night and woke up early (erm.. waking up at 12pm is early for me lor.. i need 12 hours sleep de..).. Then me and zhong washed up and prepare to go down town.. We went to Orchard first and the shopped around from orchard to Somerset.. We went to the Lan-game place which is at level 8 of Cineleisure to take a look.. Wow.. That place is really fablulous.. Everything there is so cool.. you could play lan game, surf net or rent vcds to watch there.. I love the rooms there.. I think it's specially made for couples.. Each room is equipped with a cosy and comfy sofa that could accomodate 2 pple, a LCD screen tv and 2 coms.. It seems really cosy.. Hope to have a chance to go there and slack.. haha.. Anyway, it's a really cool place..

Then we went to Sim Lim Square to check out some computer parts.. My legs were already aching after all those walking.. Then we went to Bugis's Kino to get my Japanese textbook.. At around 6 plus, we went down to Marina Bay.. I though most pple would be celebrating christmas eve in either orchard or city hall so Marina Bay will be more peaceful, but i was wrong.. I guess alot pple got the same idea as me to eat steamboat there.. As it's too early to eat, we went down to the arcade and play and played an hour of lan game.. haha.. Actually Dota quite fun wor.. keke..

Then we went for our steamboat dinner at 8 plus.. It was fun.. Hehe.. I've always love having steamboat.. Though the food may not taste that nice.. But the process is very fun and enjoyable.. Keke.. I really enjoyed the steamboat.. Hee.. Then after eating until our stomach could no longer contain anymore, which is around 9.30, we went back to the arcade for another hour of Dota.. haha..

We left Marina Bay at 11 plus and went down to Esplanade to countdown to Christmas..

So tired..

*but at the end of the day, saw things that brought my mood down.. hmm.. perhaps i should learn to be more optimistic and think less..*

Resolutions for year 2006:
1) To try put a smile on my face no matter what happens.
2) To stay happy always.
3) To learn to be more optimistic and not think too much.
4) To be who i am.
5) Hmm.. The list still goes on.. haha.. I need time to think about it.. keke..

*This fairy tale ended at 1:34 AM*

Friday, December 16, 2005

SERIOUSLY, i think something's wrong with me.. I really feel weird.. And all those bad dreams are preventing me from having a good sleep.. I haven been sleeping well for quite a long while already.. And because of the lack of sleep, i became very touchy and bad tempered.. Even the tiniest bit of thing can drive me insane.. And, my head is hurting badly.. *sighs*

What's wrong with me?

Bought a chinese book from a bookshop in Clementi yesterday.. It's a collection of short love stories by many different authors.. I've finished a few story so far and they're all very well written.. My favourite story so far is a story titled..
"一朵莲的身世"

It's about a girl who thought she've met the man of her life.. He was sweet, sensitive and gentle.. The girl was suffering from some incurable illness and he promise to take care of her forever, they were even planning for their wedding.. Yet, the guy left for another girl in the end.. Though they parted, the girl never hated him, in her heart she'll always remember his sweetness and everything he'd done for her..

Later, a few year later, another guy tried to win her heart.. He bought everything she like for her.. Soon, they got married, but 4 month later, they had a divorce cause the guy is a womaniser.. The girl never shed even a tear, cause she never loved this guy at all.. She just thought he could be a harbour for her to have a good sound sleep.. Yet, all she had was just a nap..

In the end, she died alone..

A really sad story.. there're quotes inside with i think is really meaningful:

“如果有来生，我想要做一棵树，站成永恒，没有悲欢的姿势。”
“也许，在人生的路口，往往，爱情向左走，幸福向右走。”

*This fairy tale ended at 6:02 PM*

Sunday, December 11, 2005

Bad dreams.. Bad dreams.. And more bad dreams.. I've been having bad dreams for 3 consecutive nights already.. What's wrong with me? Am i thinking about negative stuffs too much..

Different scenarios, different locations, different peoples, different scenes.. But all about the same things.. Betrayal, backstabbing, hurt, dissappointment, anguish, hurt, pain, loneliness and lotsa tears.. The me in my dreams just kept crying and crying.. And the pain and hurt and tears all felt so real.. So real that's it scares me..

I'm going to have a mental breakdown soon.. *sighs*

*This fairy tale ended at 12:56 PM*

Friday, December 09, 2005

Is something wrong with me? Why do i keep having this weird feeling.. PMS-ing??

I hate this feeling..!

*This fairy tale ended at 7:35 PM*

Thursday, December 08, 2005

Went Causeway Point with Mischelle for some shopping then made i date with her for a bballing session at sembawang.. We played at 322 for a while cause there's less pple there, then, at 8 plus, the pple there started playing full court so we decided to go 359 to have a look.. If there less pple there, maybe we could play awhile more at 359.. But too bad, both halves of the court were occupied.. Then Mischelle decided to leave, hmm.. partly because she dun wan her mom to nag i think (she's such a obedient ger, unlike me, i'm very rebellious to my parents de.. keke..) and also partly because zhong was at the court and she dun wanna she him... Hmm.. I think she afraid there'll be arkwardness cause they haven seen each other for a long time already..

So she left the i stayed back a while more to play more bball.. keke.. finally at 9 plus zhong cannot tahan already (he's been doing gym for the afternoon) so we went back home.. After bathing, we smell better now.. haha...

Hmm.. Anyway, blog until here ba.. I go watch DVD already.. keke.. Hope there'll be more bballin sessions with Mischelle in future.. Hee.. =)

*This fairy tale ended at 9:38 PM*

Monday, December 05, 2005

somehow, i feel lonely...

*This fairy tale ended at 9:21 PM*

Saturday, December 03, 2005

Life hasn't been going well for me recently.. Things seems to be going so wrong every now and then.. And i'm tired.. Tired of being happy one moment and then feeling down the next moment.. Why cant i stay happy always..? Why? sighs..

Sometimes, i really hope i could be pampered like a little princess.. I hope you would give in to me and let me be unreasonable and stubborn sometimes.. I hope you could be happy whenever when you're with me, cause when you're unhappy when you're with me, i'll feel that i'm a very useless person who cant even make the one i love happy.. Or am i really a useless person.. I'm starting to lose confidence in myself already...

Been going back to my secondary school quite frequently recently.. To help out my coach with the netball team.. I found out that i really miss those times so much.. Secondary school days are the happiest days in my life.. Those days without worries, problems and troubles.. Perhaps hearts were purer at those times.. Pple were so innocent and wouldn't hurt one another.. And, the start of a relationship is always the sweetest.. When we were so shy with expressing our feelings.. But love at that time was the purest, strongest and most true..

I miss those times........

*This fairy tale ended at 2:37 PM*