Winter Love
The winter fairies sparkle as they descend
With nothing to do
I kissed your smile in your photo

We can’t watch the long list of movies we promised to see
Together anymore
But our hearts are side by side
Even as a friend I miss you, we can’t go back

I love you, I miss you
My kisses touch the ten billion snowflakes
Even if I don’t forget you, baby, is it OK to keep loving you
Until the day we meet by chance somewhere?
I’ll never forget you

The moment I realise I was all alone
Real loneliness overwhelms me and overflows again

That feeling of loving someone
Is precious to me now, I feel like I’ll never forget it
No matter how many times I change my address
Your voice and your dreams won’t leave me

Even if we fall for different people as time goes by
I’ll probably still think of you
I can say with all my heart that I’m glad
That it was you who I met by fate, whose warmth that I felt and gave my warmth to
Until we can meet someday

Can't stop the future
It comes so fast that it’s sad, forever
It’s when you fall in love with someone that you realise how happy you are
Just alive

I love you, I miss you
My kisses touch the ten billion snowflakes
Even if I don’t forget you, baby, is it OK to keep loving you
Until the day we meet by chance somewhere?
I’ll never forget you

*This fairy tale ended at 3:26 PM*

Thursday, February 15, 2007

Happy V-day!

V-day was sweet! =)
But abit tiring cause of the on-going studio project 4..

Went school early in the morning at 9am and just kept doing work until 6pm plus.. Den went to meet him at Orchard after his work.. (p.s. sorry for being late, cause i've got lots of things to do in school.. =p)

We went to cine for our dinner and den went to PS to shop abit, wanting to watch 'ghost rider' there later.. But, the tickets at PS for 'ghost rider' was sold out.. So we went back to cine and bought the 11pm tickets.. keke.. While waiting for the movie to start, we went shop around abit more and went for a drink at starbucks.. (yummy.. i love caramel frappacino!)

"Ghost Rider" quite nice wor.. haha..

After the movie, we went to the 7-11 near cine to buy drinks.. Den it's home sweet home.. =)
Thanks for everything today.. *muacks*

Reached home at 3pm, but it's not sleep time yet cause still got to do the animating.. ZzzzZzzZzz..

So, it's a sleepless night for me today.. Cause after animating i still gotta reach school at 9am.. And i think i'll only be able to go back home to rest at 9pm plus.. zZzzzzzz

*tired*
*i need sleep!*

*This fairy tale ended at 10:00 PM*

Thursday, February 08, 2007

Went school today even though i've no class today..

Hardworking right.. Haha.. I've got no choice actually.. Gotta hand up Character Animation Assignment 3.. And to do the Rendering Assignment 3, cause my maya at home really laggggggggggggggggggg like hell.. Tried rendering out one frame of occulsion pass and it takes 15mins.. Imagine i've gotta render 125 frames.. 15min times 125= 31 hours 25mins.. *OMG*

Haha.. So gotta go school to do the rendering.. It took very longgggg too, but alot faster compared to rendering at home.. Did rendering from 12pm-7pm ytd and 2pm-6pm today.. Finally finished all the rendering of the occulsion passes, specular passes, colour passes, colour id passes, shadow passes and light passes.. 125 frames for each pass, which means a total of 750 tga files..(OooOpss! I think only the people in my course know what i'm talking about.) Haha.. This is the first time i've came across one single assignments which involves so many files.. And, this is also the first time the size of one single assignment exceeds 1GB! It's 1.6GB to be exact.. *phew*

Sighs.. But all the rendering made me gained weight..!
Cause while rendering, there's nothing else to do at all.. Yet, still gotta sit in front of the computer to make sure the rendering is still running.. So, while waiting, my mouth is 'exercising' all the time.. Fruitips, mentos, seaweed (influence by kaiyun=p), potato chips, sandwiches, potato wedges, jellybeans and pocky.. All these helped my mouth to 'exercise' while waiting.. ZzzZzzz.. So sinful..

DAMN IT! I hate myself for lack of self-discipline! I'm eating so much unhealthy stuffs though i kept telling myself that i need to lose weight! I've gained so much weight already.. Really gotta start dieting! *sighs*

So, to all my schoolmates (kaiyun, huifen, weilun, zhiqun, grace, lengsim, hazel, danni, etc etc):
"Please please please do me a favour.. If i ask you to accompany me to shopping arcade to buy junk food, please reject me! If you see me eating excessive sweets (abit nevermind la), please take the sweets away from me! If i'm going to eat anything fried or unheathly during lunch breaks, please stop me! Please constantly remind me that i'm on DIET!"

Anyway, i'm quite relieved to finish all the rendering by today.. Now, i still have thurs and friday to do the compositing..

Gotta catch some sleep cause there's a battle to fight tmr, the day after tmr and for the following few weeks!
*Wish me luck*
*nites*

To myself:
"Stay strong, fangfang!
Gotta find back the 'fire' in yourself to do everything the best that you can.. Gotta stay focus and put more effort in your studies.. What's done cant be undone, so all you can do now is to make up for all the mistakes you've made in the past.. Do your best in everything.. Gotta find back your true self!
Relationship-wise, don't let your emotions affect your studies! Don't be so pessimistic.. You're a tough girl, nothing can bring you down!
Even if things are not going well, put on a smile, cause there'll always be a beautiful rainbow after rain...
Smile always, girl!"

*This fairy tale ended at 2:55 AM*

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

Image Synthesis is over!
Character Animation done, all i have to do is go sch tomorrow to hand it up!

All that's left is Rendering assignment 3 which is due this friday.. Textured, Lighted, and now left with rendering out the different passes and compositing.. So tedious.. *headache*

Tomorrow maybe going to stay back again to do rendering again.. *tired*
How i wish i could have a break..! But, it's impossible.. Next week would be the start of SP4, and it's gonna be real hectic.. I'm so tired.. The only break i could look forward to is the 2 days Chinese New Year holidays..

Anyway, realised i've developed a habit of taking photos in the toilet.. keke..
OoPps! Is that a good habit or a bad one.. lolx..








Bought a new Wilson bag.. Love it tons.. keke.. I seem to have eyes only for big big bags.. Cause i can throw all my stuffs in.. Haa.. But, it's definitely difficult weaving thru crowds with this bag.. Haa..

Been pampering myself too much lately..
- Wilson bag
- 4 nike tops (3 white tees and 1 fuschia polo shirt)
- Small nike pouch (to put in my wallet and keys when i dont wanna bring along a bag)
- Nike water bottle
- 2 suspenders (red & black) (dunno if i'll dare to wear it out)
- 1 red abercrombie polo
- 1 white esprit basic spag top

Gotta go sleep already.. Still gotta go school tmr and i definitely need to catch some rest.. =(
Yawns......

*nites*

*This fairy tale ended at 3:12 AM*

Saturday, February 03, 2007

Marketing report & presentation is over..
Drawing is finally over too.. So relieved.. *phew*
I'm actually quite please with most of my drawings, except the turntables..

Now, left with Image synthesis final assignment on this coming monday, and rendering assignment 3 & character animation assignment 3 which is due this coming friday.. After which, it's followed by SP4.. Gosh! So many things to do.. So little time.. *sighs*


Rainbow! Can you spot it?

It's so pretty.. Too bad pretty things in life are all short-termed.. Hais..


Photo i used for my attachment CV


Me!

Sighs.. Gained so much weight lately.. Especially during the week when i'm rushing my drawing assignment.. Kept eating and eating while drawing.. Sweets, sushi, fishballs, chocolates, suppers.. Once i'm stress, i'll keep eating and eating.. Sighs..

Gosh! I'm so fat now..

Time to start eating less carbos and lose weight!
I wanna look pretty for New Year...

Sighs..

So many things to do.. So little time.. Yet i'm not doing anything.. I haven touched anything else ever since after the drawing assignment.. I kept telling myself "today i gotta finish character animation", "today i gotta finish the texturing", but when i open the files in maya, my mind is in a blank.. I'll stare at stare and my half done assignments in a daze, and den close maya with no progress.. *sighs*

I really dunno what the hell is wrong with me.. I keep thinking about my assignments, thinking of the movements for my animation, thinking of the colours and textures i wan for my fruits.. I know clearly what i wan.. But, i just cant seem to put them into action..

What's wrong with me?
Why have i become like this?

I ain't like this in the past.. In my secondary years, everything i do i will do my best.. I used to be a perfectionist.. Be it in my CCAs or studies, i'll do my best in everything, wanting to be the best of the best.. I used to be very competitive, not wanting to lose to anyone... I'm a CCA leader, i'm always the top few in my cohot.. I used to exel in sports, leadership, studies and art then..

But now.......
I'm NOTHING!

I'm such a slacker now.. Everything i do, i have the damn mentality that 'i just wanna get it over and done with'.. I seemed to have lost that "fire" in me.. And i dunno how i could get that "fire" burning again.. Why have i changed so much?

Is "that" decision i made that changed everything about me?
If i've not taken "that" step, will everything be different now?

I feel so lost.. I've lost my direction in life..

*Sighs*

*This fairy tale ended at 7:57 PM*