Yippee..~! I've watched "Madagascar".. Looking forward to this film since a long time ago de.. Finally caught it last night with Wenzhong.. Keke.. A really funny comedy.. Kept me laughing non-stop throughout.. I really like this movie alot.. (maybe i'm childish, but nvm..) *stick out tongue* The storyline was quite meaningful too, about friendship.. Hmm.. Friends should never forsake each no matter what.. And no matter where we are, no matter as we are together, that's all that matter.. *smiles*

To all my friends out there.. Especially those who were by my side when i'm down.. I just wanna say a big thank you to you all.. Thanks for being there for me.. I wouldn't know what to do without you all.. And if you all ever need me, i'll always be there for you all.. Anytime and anywhere.. Muacks..

Thursday, May 26, 2005

Ankle Painz!

*sighs* i hate to start off with a sigh.. But couldn't help it.. *shrugs* Just came back from a late night jog.. I enjoy having jogs at night.. SO cooling and soothing.. And late night jogs calms me down and help me cool down (especially useful when i'm having bad mood)..

After watching a few episodes of the anime, "master cooking boy", i decided to go for a run.. Partly because i was bored and needed some fresh air.. And partly because i wanted to train up my stamina.. The jog started fine.. I was enjoying the cool breeze on me while jogging.. Then i tripped and fell down.. *sighs* I guess i was too clumsy ba.. I think it's also partly because i was thinking about other stuffs and not concentrating while running.. Hmm.. Can't seems to kick off this bad habit of losing my concentration.. Constantly in my own dreamland.. haha.. Dunno i've fallen down how many times le sia... =(

Anyway, my kneecaps hurting... *sobs* Abit bruised.. But only a little bit of blood oozing out.. so i guess not much big deal ba.. But when i walk my right ankle hurts.. A few years back, i've sprained the same ankle during my netball tournament.. Guess it's an old injury.. Hope the sprain isn't serious.. Must get well soon wor..~! =)

"miss you alot, dear"

*This fairy tale ended at 6:32 PM*

Monday, May 23, 2005

I wish this could go on forever~!

Wenzhong's back again.. This weekend supposed to be a long one de.. Cause monday is a holiday.. But, he got OB duty from sunday mornin till monday morning.. *sighs* That means his weekend is cut short le.. He's now back at P.A. doing his duty now.. Looking forward to him coming back on monday morning.. =)

Nevertheless, the times we had together when he is back was very sweet.. Though me and Wenzhong never went anywhere in particlular.. But, as long as he's by my side, i'll be happy no matter where he is.. The feeling of being back in his embrace again is really wonderful.. Feels so warm and safe.. Really wish to stay in his arms forever.. When he whispered "Miss you so much" and "i love you" into my ears before we went to sleep, i really felt so xing fu.. And it really feels great to be able to see his face the moment i wake up.. Seeing his innocent sleeping face just inches in front of me.. Hearing every breath he takes and feeling his warmth.. I really hope this would go on forever and ever.. I'll be the happiest woman on the earth then...

I think the sweetest thing he did this weekend was when he was drying my hair for me after we bath.. At that point of time, i really wished time would stop at that moment.. So, i could enjoy this sweetness longer..

This is the kind of life i want to last forever and ever..~! I love you so much, Zhong.. Let's work hard to together to make my dream come true..! And create a fairytale ending for our future.. MUACKS..

*This fairy tale ended at 3:58 AM*

Thursday, May 19, 2005

Life Life To The Fullest!

Recently i realised that nowadays, many teenagers have alot of negative thoughts about life.. I guess i sorta understand these problems cause i've been through that phase of life too (but i cant say i'm totally right).. Some teenagers nowadays seems to have very pessimistic thinking about life once they come upon obstacle(s) in their life.. No matter it's hurts from family, friends, relationship,etc, once they've met disappointment or hurts, they'll think very negatively and may even have suicidal thoughts..

I admit i was one of them.. After meeting setbacks in my life, there was a period of time when i also have such thoughts.. At tat time, i kept wondering.. "Why is the world such a horrible place to live in? Why are there only pain, sorrows, darkness and hurts? Am i borned to suffer? Why must i be borned into this terrible world? If i die, wouldn't there be no more pain?" I did have suicidal thoughts at that point of time.. But, i guess if i really commited suicide at that point of time, i wouldn't have realised there are also many happy things that could happened to me..! If i've really died at that point of time, i wouldn't be able to enjoy so many beautiful things in life! Therefore, i'm really glad that i've lived on.. I'm glad that, i've overcome those negative thoughts..~!

Some people may meet setbacks in relationship.. So what? Along your path in love, you may meet a few wrong people, but in the end, you'll find your Mr. Right de.. Why give up after setbacks when there's more choices waiting for you..? As long as you've done your best in fighting for what you want.. That's it! No need for regrets.. I feel that as long as you still have feelings for that person, dun give up.! If that person is touched by your feelings for him/her, then it'll be a happy ending.. If not, just get on with life.. Sooner or later, your Mr. Right will turn up somewhere..

Some people may have grown up in a broken family.. Again, so what? In our society now, many teenagers grew up in a broken family.. Me too.. I've grew up in a broken family too.. I used to feel ashamed of my past so i told no one about it.. Only my closest ones knows.. I grew up without a father.. It had always been my mother, my sister, my brother and me depending on one another.. "father" is a unfamiliar word to me.. Since i was young, i only had my mother.. But she was always busy trying to earn a living to support us.. So i had to be independent and depend on myself.. Childhood was a very lonely phase of life for me.. I had no father.. Until he finally appeared out of nowhere when i was in about Pri.5-6.. Nevertheless, even till now, sometimes i still feel like he's a stranger to me.. When i'm matured enough, my mom told me actually my father left us for another woman.. He had an extra-marital affair.. I guess maybe i'm still angry with him for making us suffer so much without him, that's why, i haven fully accepted him..

But, this doesn't mean that i have the right to blame the world for everything, this doesn't mean i can blame all my setbacks on my family background.. I cant possibly say that because i'm from a broken family, i'll never be happy, i'll never be successful.. Whether a person can be happy or successful, depends on their mentality.. If a person keeps thinking that he/she will never be happy, of course he/ she will never be happy.. so it's up to yourself to create your own future, cause, your future lies in your hands..

No matter what, there'll always be people in this world who's concern about you.. Be it your friends, your siblings, your family, or your love ones.. Also, there are people in this world whom you care about.. Please spare a thought for them.. Dun waste your youth away being binded in such negative thoughts about life.. Dun disappointed those you care for and those who care for you..! Most importantly, dun disappoint yourself.. This is your life.. Life it to the fullest, so you'll have no regrets..~!

*This fairy tale ended at 4:04 PM*

Tuesday, May 17, 2005

~mY dReaM~

Kept having a weird feeling throughout the day.. Like something bad is going to happen liddat.. This feeling made me so moody.. *sighs* I guess this feeling is somehow related to the recent dream that i had.. I dreamt about the incidents that i thought i've forgotten.. I never think about those things anymore le.. But dunno why i suddenly had that dream.. sighs.. Maybe very deep within my heart, the scar is still there.. I really hope it'll stop huanting me.. And i hope he'll help me heal my wounds with his love and care...~!

It's always been my dream, to walk down the aisle with Wenzhong.. I'll be in the most beautiful and purest white wedding gown and he'll be in his most stunning suit, smiling and gazing so gently into my eyes.. And we'll walk down the path, his warm big hand holding on tightly to my hand, as if he'll never ever let go.. We would solemly make our vows and be declared as husband and wife.. He would slip on the ring onto my finger and i would slip on the ring onto his.. Then he would give me the sweetest kiss ever.. And we would welcome our new lives as husband and wife.. A brand new beginning for us.. And till death do us part... *smiles*

Please fulfill my dream for me, dear.. I will be waiting for that day.. And that will definitely be the happiest and xing fu day of my life~! I love you so much, dear..~!

*This fairy tale ended at 11:24 AM*

Sunday, May 15, 2005

Sentosa Outing With My Dear~!

Friday(13.05.2005):: Went out with Wenzhong's mom to orchard to shop.. Walk for very very long.. So tired.. Keke.. But it's quite a fruitful day for both of us.. Then we went to yishun to get the tonic that Wenzhong's grandpa made for him.. Then went home to wait for Wenzhong to come back.. At about 8 plus at night, Wenzhong is finally back.. We played abit of RO.. Then we went Sun Plaza at watch the 9.15pm movie-XXX:the next level.. Quite a nice movie.. Then we went back home..

Saturday(14.05.2005):: Woke up at 8 plus in the morning by Wenzhong.. Woke up to bath, wash up and prepare to go sentosa.. But we ended up playing RO again.. Keke.. I was training a new character.. Played till about 9am then we left for sentosa.. Wanted to have breakfast at Sun plaza's Macdonalds de (i miss mac's big breakfast) but there were to many people.. *sighs* So we took MRT to HarbourFront.. Wenzhong was talking to me about his training inside PA, his first aid, and life saving skills, etc.. Very interesting.. Keke..
Finally arrived at Harbour Front at about 10am.. We went have breakfast at the hawker centre there and then took the shuttle bus into Sentosa.. We went to Underwater World first.. Keke.. I love the jellyfish there... Looks like a mushroom.. Super Kawaii.. And i was constantly in awe of the size of some of the species of fishes there..
After Underwater world, our next destination will be the Dolphin Lagoon.. Instead of taking the bus there, we walked there instead.. Took a long long walk along the beach from Sunset Bay all the way to Tanjong Beach.. We were both sweating under the hot sun by the time we reach Dolphin Lagoon.. Went into the lagoon and saw a performance put up by the pink dolphins there.. The pink doliphins are so cute.. Love them~!
Then about 3 plus in the afternoon, Wenzhong told me that we're going to take the cable car from Sentosa back to Harbour Front.. I was quite excited yet abit scared.. Cause I've never taken a cable car before.. And it seem very scary to be hanging to high up in the air.. Wenzhong kept holding tight to my hands and reassuring me and told me not be be afraid.. =) So Sweet.. I was rather afraid when the ride started.. But started to really enjoy the ride later on.. Cause the scenery is really nice.. *smiles* Today marks a memorable day for me as i had the very first cable ride of my life.. After shopping a while at HarbourFront, we took a cab back home.. I was so tired.. Fell asleep lying on his shoulders.. =)

Wanna say a really big 'thank you' to my dear.. Really had a fabulous day today.. Very sweet too.. Thanks for everything.. I love you, dear.. Muacks..

*This fairy tale ended at 10:52 AM*

Friday, May 13, 2005

Hmm.. Tired.. But still can't get myself to sleep.. *shrugs* I feel that i'm not myself these few days.. My mood changes so easily these few days.. Will easily get pissed off and fed up when i feel that things are not going well.. Sighs.. Normally, i'll have no temper de.. Really dunno what's happening? PMS? *shrugs*

But lucky i didnt let my mood affects my friends.. I'll still try to keep my cool and just get over the mood swing.. I guess that's the way i am.. I dun like to show my emotions, especially bad one to my friends... Or, i should say that i dun wish any outings to be spoiled just because of me.. Anyway, hope my "PMS" get over soon.. *sighs*

Woke up today to find my lips bit swollen.. Also dunno what happened to my lips.. Now still abit swollen.. It hurts when i touch the swollen part.. sighs.. Hope the swell subsides soon.. I'm trying my best not to be affected by the swell.. =) Went out a while with Ain to look for shorts and to buy a tank top.. Spent the rest of the day at home watching a japanese series to keep myself occupied.. So boring..

Wenzhong will be back tomorrow.. Hope he'll be back early.. Hmm.. Also hope this weekend will be a happy and sweet one for both of us.. =)

*This fairy tale ended at 2:22 AM*

Tuesday, May 10, 2005

bUrnT aT sentoSa~!

siLosO bEacH (L-R:: Lynette, Me, Karen, JiaWan, YanLing)

Just came back from sentosa.. =) Quite a fun and enjoyable day.. except for the fact that we're all badly burnt.. keke..

Our class met 11am at Harbour Front MRT station.. Hmm.. Supposed to be our Group 12 outing de.. But we ended up with some of the other OGLs.. including our seniors.. But nevertheless, we had a hell lots of fun.. Poor wanwan and lynette kanna thrown into the water by our class guys.. lucky me and karen got into the water ourselves, thus being spared from the fate of being thrown down.. Played abit of volleyball there too.. At around evening, we went wash up and went to DhoubyGhuat for dinner... Slack around there abit and then went home.. So tired...

One good thing is that most of the gurls had gotten tanned... keke.. But hopefully they're not burnt.. Gurls, slab on lotsa moisturizing cream and aloe vera k.. =)

"Miss ya alot, dear.. Hope we'll have the chance to go sentosa together soon.. keke.. It's been a long time since i've went sentosa with you.. keke... Dear's so sweet recently.. If this could go on forever, i think i'll be the happiest woman on Earth.. keke.. Love you so much, dear.. Looking forward to seeing you this weekend.. muacks.."

*This fairy tale ended at 2:26 PM*

Sunday, May 08, 2005

i LovE mY deAriEs of dMd0412

*This fairy tale ended at 1:35 AM*

Friday, May 06, 2005

bYe bYe, oRientAtion~!

yIpPeEeEeeee~! Orientation is finally over! These 3 days are really really tedious.. Going to school early in the morning and going home very late at night.. Anyway, i'm glad that this orientation'05 is a success! I had lots of fun there too.. This orientation has brought DMD0412 girls ever closer together.. (i love you all, dearies)

These three days were really hectic.. It's hard being a OGL.. Gotta help the freshmen to get bonded to their classmates.. Need to organise so many things.. I was in charge of one of the stations during the mass game-win, lose or draw.. Almost lost my voice due to the shoutings i had to do.. Hmm.. My cough getting from back to worse le.. Hope to recover soon.. Cause my throat and abs are already very painful due to all the coughings.. But anyway, i really enjoyed myself though there're times when i felt pissed off during the orientation..

Glad that the orientation is over.. I'll be missing the freshies though.. keke.. Especially my Group 10.. Hope they'll do well in this course and get even more bonded together during their one year together.. =)

Missing you, dear.. Looking forward to you coming back tomorrow... Muacks..

*This fairy tale ended at 2:49 PM*

Monday, May 02, 2005

I need you~!

I really need your support and need you to be by my side to help me to stand up again after this failure.. All i need is your encouragement.. Do you know how i wished you'd hug me tight and tell me that everything will be alright.. Do you know how i wished that you would kiss my tears away and say to me that:"i know you did your best.. you will make it next semester de.." How i wished you'd encourage me and comfort me instead of scolding me..

I know you are disappointed in me.. I'm also very disappointed in myself too.. It really hurts when i found out that i've failed doing the thing that i love the most-drawing.. I dun even know whether i'll have the courage to pick up a pencil to draw again..

I really need your encouragement to stand up again.. I need you to reassure me that it's going to be alright.. I'm scared.. Really scared... Please tell me you'll stand by me always..Please tell me you'll support me.. Please tell me you love me..!

*This fairy tale ended at 5:07 AM*