* The Fairytale of Pandagirl *

Sunday, October 29, 2006

*crying alone in the night*
*i'm tired*

SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS SOBS

*Wishing i could fall sick.. Really really sick.. And just sleep and sleep and sleep and think of nothing else..*
*Wishing i could meet with an accident.. So i could forget all unhappy memories and start anew as a happy girl..*
*Wishing i could disappear..*

*I'm TIRED!*

*This fairy tale ended at 7:49 PM*

OMG... ARGH... OUCH... OUCH..

My waist and calves are aching like mad after playing bball at 322 yesterday.. Damn Shiok.. It's been a long time since i've ran this much and exercised so vigourously.. Started playing at around 6pm and played till around 10pm.. At the last 2 matches, i was totally shagged.. My body felt as if it wasn't under my control at all.. *sighs*

My stamina and speed had deproved so much.. So disappointing.. Still remember in my secondary days, i'd run 2.4km every alternate days and it's no kick at all.. Still remember in my netballing days, i'm the fastest runner in my team and pple would say i ran like wind liddat.. Still remember in my netballing days, i had the strongest passes in my team.. *sighs* ARGH.. So disappointing that my strength, stamina and speed had deproved..

I MISS MY NETBALL DAYS..

Almost have to drag myself outta bed today, waist and calves aching.. Work up at 11pm.. But still refused to get outta bed.. Just laid on the bed watching Prince of Tennis until 1.30pm, den i dragged myself to the toilet to washed up and prepare to meet -The Cats- at their open house for ICG..

Hee.. Wore stockings today.. *WHeee Wheee* haha..

Bought this stockings a long long time ago.. But didn't have the courage to wear it out.. Today is the first time i wore it out.. Hee.. At first when i walked outta the house, felt so insecure.. I can see people 'scanning' my up and down.. *or perhaps it's my illusion* But after a while i've gotten used to it.. keke..

The most memorable things at the open house for ICG is that i betted all my chips on number '23' for roulette and i won.. *wow* Damn lucky.. But of course that's only for fun only la.. Not real money.. I think gambling is a total waste of money lor.. Keke..I found the dealers there very professional.. It's was fun.. Ideed an eye opener for me..

After the open house ending, we went for dinner:

Lennard & Jacqueline

Fangfang & Chucky

The Cats

Den went slack a while till 10.30pm den it's home sweet home.. Bought a can of Mocha at 7-11 on my way back.. *yummy* It was nice.. It's been a long long time since i've drank coffee already.. Hope it will not make me have a sleepless night tonight.. Reached home at around 12a.m.

HOME SWEET HOME:

Changed outta my contact lenses.. Eyes so dry after wearing contacts for the whole day already.. Looking damn nerdy at home.. *WAHAHAHA*

Had pratas for supper at 1am plus.. So sinful.. ='(
Lesson learnt: Don't skip meals.. Or not will end up eating more when you start eating..
*sighs*

*TIRED*
*I GO PLAY DOTA FIRST DEN GO SLEEP LE*
*CHOCOLATE DREAMS*

*This fairy tale ended at 2:54 AM*

Wednesday, October 25, 2006

* 还爱你带一点恨还要时间才能平衡 *

Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs Sighs

Feelings very messed up recently.. Felt so lost.. Disappointed.. Sad.. Confused.. Heartache.. Somehow, it's like i no longer know what i want.. I dunno what lies ahead.. I dunno what i'm waiting for.. I dunno who i am anymore.. *headache*

It felt like i'm walking in pitch black darkness.. I dunno where i'm heading towards.. Dunno when i might just trip and fall down in this darkness.. It's a really scary feeling..

I hope someone could hold out a hand for me and lead me out of this darkness.. But what can i do when the only person who can lead me out of this darkness is the one who've pushed me into this dark pitch?

*i'm tired*

*This fairy tale ended at 3:07 AM*

Tuesday, October 24, 2006

-The Cats™- @ Vivocity

The first place i went was the Candy Empire.. Guess what i bought...

Jelly Beans!!!
There's altogether 28 flavours.. Alot of interesting and yummy flavours such as watermelon, strawberry cheesecake, pina colada, cotton candy, etc.. But, of course there're some yucky flavours too, like caribean coconut, liquorice and buttered popcorn.. *yucks*

Then we went to the foodcourt to have our breakfast-cum-lunch..

Not much appetite.. Thus ordered this cup thingy (i forgot what it's called) and a popiah and shared with my friend.. The crust of the cup thingy is nice.. But abit expensive, 3 bucks for 4 of these tiny things..

Vivocity is BIG.... I think if i were to go there alone, i'll sure get lost de.. keke..

At Toys R Us:

Huge Gundum model..

After some shopping, we went to a cafe to have a drink and slack..

Blur me..

Say Cheese!!

-The Cats™-

We slack till 8 plus den Lennerd drove us to Raffles MRT station.. On our journey back..
In the car:

On train:

Den we went back home respectively to bathe and rest for a while before meeting at 11pm at 313 for our dinner-cum-supper.. After eating, went to the fitness corner to slack somemore..

Played around at the fitness corner machiam monkeys liddat:

The photos turn out so dark.. Cant even see our face.. Lolx..

Reached home at 2 plus a.m..
*tired*
*sugar dreams*

*This fairy tale ended at 5:56 PM*

Thursday, October 19, 2006

First week of school have ended, cause i've no lesson on fridays.. First week is pretty much of slacking.. But 2nd week is gonna be hell, cause all assignment will start piling up le.. Oh gosh! I'm still in holiday mood.. I shall slap myself awake.. *OUCH!*

I've finished watching "Princess Hours".. A really nice show which is worth watching.. But at the middle abit dragging.. But overall, it's quite good.. *smiles* The female lead, 'shen cai jing' is really adorable and cute.. Keke.. She looks really pretty when she puts down her hair..

And they got those really cute teddy bears.. At the ending of each episodes, there'll be pictures of the bears.. And the bears are wearing the same clothing that the characters are wearing in the show.. The bears were even posed like certain scenes from the show.. Super duper ADORABLE..

Photos:
These are what me and me friends did..

Edited photos- Inspired by 'Princess Hours'

*This fairy tale ended at 10:41 PM*

Monday, October 16, 2006

I'm so BORED...!

Results of my boredom...

1. Taking photos of myself

2. Watching anime and got hooked on it- Prince of Tennis

My favourites: Eiji Kikumaru & Ryoma Echizen

3. Watching koreean drama "Princess Hour" vcds..

Countdown:
17 more hours to the new semester.. *sighs* So dreading going to school..

*This fairy tale ended at 10:00 AM*

Friday, October 13, 2006

I'm feeling so tired.. *sighs*

Tired of everything.. Somehow i wish time could stop for me.. To recuperate and tidy up the messy feelings inside my heart.. Somehow i wish i could just sleep forever and never wake up.. So i could live in my dreams, a place where there're only happy memories of the past.. I dun wanna wake up.. Cause when i wake up, i'd have to face reality.. Somehow, i wish i could just die and leave this world.. Then i'd not need to go thru all these..

Today, i woke up early.. Wanted to go back to sleep but i just couldn't fall asleep again.. I hate waking up.. Cause nonsense thoughts will come to my mind.. And i just lie in bed, crying and crying..

I hate who i am now.. When did i became like this..? Not willing to face the reality.. Why am i like this now..? I ain't like this in the past.. It seems that now, the times i spent being sad and crying are so much more then the times i'm laughing and having fun.. What had happened to me..? Since when my mind had been filled with so much pessimistic thoughts, so much that i could hardly breathe..

I don't wanna grow up.. I wished i could remain 17 years old forever.. When i was young, i kept wanting to grow up.. Thinking if i could grow up faster, i could fall in love, get married and live happily every after like in all fairy tales.. No one told me growing up involves so much pain, worries, disappointments and heartaches..

我真的真的累了。

*This fairy tale ended at 1:10 AM*

Thursday, October 12, 2006

He's soundly asleep now after i gave him a massage and stroke his hair to sleep.. Looking at his innocent face, it felt as if he's still the same little boy i fell in love with 4 years ago.. Gave him a soft kiss on his forehead and whispered 'sweet dreams'.. Hoping i'd appear in his dreams tonight..

'I still love him as much as i did 4 years ago.. Does he?' i wondered..

*This fairy tale ended at 5:16 PM*

我的心真的累了难道你一点也看不见
解释再多也不能改变
感情不能靠我一个人挽回

开始学着不要人陪假装孤单也是一种美
大街上的情人双双对对
让我看得心愈来愈碎

孤单的人总说无所谓
其实心里一直在下雪
总是希望有个人能够敝开我心扉
让我在他怀里找到安慰

孤单的人总说无所谓
一直独自整理所有伤悲
掩饰心中的感觉强忍眼角的泪水
聚聚散散不愿说后悔

埋藏心中的感觉擦乾眼角的泪水
聚聚散散不愿说后悔

*This fairy tale ended at 12:34 PM*

Sunday, October 08, 2006

Just came back from Orchard.. Legs aching.. Yuppss.. I went shopping alone.. In fact, sometimes i prefer shopping alone.. Cause i don't have to feel guilty about the person waiting outside the changing room for me when i'm trying on clothes.. Hees..

Guess what i bought today? Hee.. Something which you all have nv seen me worn before..
JEANS!!!

Not jeans short.. But long jeans.. Hee.. Bought Levi's super super low boot cut jeans.. Hmm.. But dunno whether i'll have the courage to wear it out or not.. Cause i always think i look horrible in long jeans due to my short and bulky legs.. So.. Wait for me to lose weight first ba.. Haa.. I bought it a size smaller to motivate me to lose weight wor..

Saw Levi's new ladies style jeans and denim skirt.. Damn gorgeous.. I love the mini skirt.. But.. $229 for the skirt.. So expensive.. T.T Must slowly save up first...

Also, i bought a white tee from Levi's.. Nice... *lolx*

After that, went to the Levi's shop at lucky plaza for alteration of length.. Saw a couple of nice Levi's men tees, but all dun have the size for him..

So, went Flash n Splash to shop abit and bought a white stussy t-shirt for him.. Keke.. Legs aching after all those walking..

And now, it's time to watch Tombraider at channel 5.. *winks*

*This fairy tale ended at 7:21 PM*

Friday, October 06, 2006

My very own limited edition DKNY's Red Delicious

Red Delicious Women:
DKNY introduces a second bite of temptation with a new, limited-edition scent. Aptly named DKNY Red Delicious, this sexy fragrance is a bit more daring, a bit more tantalizing - completely irresistible.

A glittering champagne accord shimmers with exotic lychee, while red raspberry flirtatiously mingles with crisp apple. The heart intensifies with rich, velvety rose combined with lush notes of drenched violet petals, evolving to a rich, sensual blend of vanilla bean crushed with warm patchouli and a luminous amber note. Capping off the sultry experience, a sensual skin accord mixes with raspberry for a soft kiss of sweetness.

Notes:
Champagne Accord, Lychee, Red Raspberry, Apple, Rose, Vanilla Bean, Patchouli, Amber, Sensual Skin Accord, Raspberry.

Style:
Tempting. Sexy. Delicious.

*This fairy tale ended at 2:50 PM*

Thursday, October 05, 2006

Went running with him today.. =)

We ran from our house to sembawang beach.. Hee.. On our journey, we pass by alot of remote places i'm unfamiliar with.. So, he became my tour guide, telling me what those places are and were.. Lolx..

When we reached sembawang beach, we went to the jetty there to do our cool down stretches and enjoy the scenery there.. Den strolled in the park a while.. There's a eatery place there wor.. And the ambience is quite nice.. Got candles on the tables.. So romantic.. He wanted to eat there.. But too bad we didn't bring along enough money.. So, next time ba~~!

Wanted to take bus back at first de.. But he suggested walking back.. So, we walk back.. Bought drinks at a provision shop on our walk and chit chat on our walk back.. Hand in hand.. *smiles* On our way, we stopped by sembawang CC and explored around abit.. Den we dropped by 406 to buy back some food for our dinner..

Den it's home sweet home.. *smiles*

It was a really sweet day.. Keke.. Hope we get to do this more often.. =)

Now, he's sound asleep after i gave him a massage therapy.. Yawns.. My eyelids are getting heavier and heavier after taking medicine for my flu.. *sniff sniff* It's time for me to go off to dreamland to accompany him le.. Nights.. Sugar dreams, everyone.. *yawns*

*This fairy tale ended at 2:58 PM*

Sunday, October 01, 2006

Pisces Woman
(most are quite true)

Positive Traits:
* Loving and caring
* Trusting, hospitable, and will help all in distress
* Shy
* Helpful
* Romantic
* Creative
* Mystical
* Gentle and kind
* Compassionate
* Understanding of others

NegativeTraits:
* Self-pitying
* Gullible and will give all in a lost cause
* Temperamental
* Dependent
* Escapist
* Sensationalist
* Depressive
* Can lose touch with reality
* Too emotionally involved with the problems of others
* Tends to blame self for everything

She likes to be in a dream world than to be in reality. *yupps*
She is weak and sensitive when it's come to "Love". *true*
She can cry if her best friend is breaking up, and she can be over excited when her friend gets a new boy friend who is a good looking and rich even it is nothing concerned her at all.
You might be surprise to see that she is shy just because she is in love.

She loves small animal and gifted in training animals.
She has sixth senses and she can guess what will happen next, it's her nature.
Even she has a good sixth senses, she cannot pick or foresee her own choice of lover.
She cannot tell if she meet a sincere guy or a one night stand guy.

She likes to buy and pick her own clothes.
She likes to dress cute and be cute. *absolutely not true*
Pisces woman tend to be a good-looking woman and she has a nice skin. *is it?*
Her hands and feet are small and soft.
Pisces woman loves to shop for shoes as if she collects them. *not true; i prefer shopping for skirts*
She is a hot lady that everyone wants. *......*
Whether she has a man in her life or not , she will never try to over powered any man.
It's not even in her thought.
She thinks man can handle things better, and she will make her man feel that way.

She is a easy-going person, so being with her is easy.
She is a confident woman and likes to make people who stay with her happy. *i like to see pple around me happie*
She knows how to please and how to comfort a man.
She will not push her man to be ambition but to make him feel like he should be happy with the way he is now.
She is happy with you for what you are now.

A Pisces woman , if she has a bad childhood, she will always remember it and it will make her a very unhappy person. *very true indeed*
She will pity herself and feel sorry for herself.
She tends to hurt herself with out knowing it and so vulnerable to drugs (real drugs or just sleeping pills). *maybe*

She has many choices and you can never tell which path she going to take.
If you love her, then hold her tight because she never knows why she did what she did or what she will do next.

A complex character.

She is a dreamer and loves the word "Love", so she is the type who will buy gift for anyone for any occasion, especially if it is a gift for wedding or an anniversary even for someone who she does not know so well.
She will be soft and gentle most of the time.
She is emotional and extremely sensitive when she frequently got hurt. *true*
She is the type who can cry her heart out. *yups, i'm a cry-baby.*

She can have a secret fear inside, when she says she does not need anyone.
She badly needs someone to protect her, but sometimes she can hide that feeling by being stubborn.
She likes to hide her shyness and her weakness from her enemy.
She does not like to follow any fixed rules.
She can be a good housewife if you know how to handle her. *Eeerm.. I don't think so..*

She's mystical and poetic and she needs a regular outlet for her creative expressions. Her sign rules all non-verbal communication--symbols, gesture, dance, art, and poetry--and the Pisces woman is highly intuitive.
She trusts her feelings and she reads body language perfectly, so don't try to say one thing and mean another--she will catch on quickly. *Beware, liars..*

Pisces will need to be alone occasionally to recharge and refresh herself, so allow her time for that.
She's caring and sensitive to her man, but can easily be so self-effacing that she forgets her own needs. *yups*
Her urge to relieve suffering in others is as strong as the life force and it is the single most important element of her nature to understand.
Some people will sometimes take advantage of her good nature.
Her man should help her by reminding her that it's OK to say no to favors others ask of her.

At times the world can have a wearing-down effect on her self-confidence, which sometimes needs rebuilding in even the strongest Pisces women. *very true*

When Pisces is hurt, she will build her own version of the world to protect herself, preferring to live in a world of dreams until she feels she is ready for re-entry into reality.

Realize this is not a weakness--she will always come back--and the worst thing you could say to this fragile beauty is "Get real!"

Many men will ask to marry her because she is a 100% woman.
If she wants to be sweet, she is a real angel. *-.-'''*

*This fairy tale ended at 3:19 AM*