* The Fairytale of Pandagirl *

Sunday, April 30, 2006

Yeah.. Kinda happie that tmr is Labour Day.. Public holiday.. No school.. *grins*

Still not getting use to school life.. Seems like time is never enough even since school started.. Assignments are really starting to pile up.. But overall, i guess things are relatively fun and interesting.. It's nice knowing new frens.. And getting to closer to my frens..

Current wishlist:
1. More Flesh Imp Tees (lOlx)
2. Black Nike Gym Bag w/ Gold Nike Logo
3. Mini Skirts from Forever21 & Billabong
4. To Lose Weight (bleahx)
5. Staying HAPPIE.......

Emotionally, i felt weird...
Kinda scare i'll lose the things and the people dear to my heart one day.. Sometimes late at night when i lie on my bed.. Images and thoughts will run thru my mind.. Images of the possibiltes of the future.. Thoughts of memories from the past.. And i just cant fall asleep.. I dunno why i'm having such thoughts.. I just feel weird!

Hope tmr will be a better day for me......

*This fairy tale ended at 11:50 PM*

Monday, April 17, 2006

School had started.. *shrugs* No more slacking days.. No more chionging of maplestory.. No more sleeping at 3-4am and waking up at 1pm in the afternoon.. Sighs..

Today is just the first day of school and i'm already looking forward to the 2 weeks term break 8 weeks later.. Hopefully i can survive this 8 weeks..

Dear wrote something sweet in my new notebook i bought for the new school semester.. Hopefully whenever i open my notebook and see those word written by him, i'll be motivated to study hard and slack less.. =)

That's all folks...~!

*This fairy tale ended at 4:46 PM*

Thursday, April 13, 2006

Wednesday, 12 April 2006

Sentosa Outing with my juniors...

Early in the morning.. On my way to meet my sister before going to HarbourFront MRT station to meet the others.. Super tired and sleepy.. Cause i slept at 4am the previous night.. Then woke up at 7.30am in the morning.. Only 3 and a half hours of sleep.. *sleepy*

My sis,zhen and me..

Cheryl, zhen & me..

Finally, we reach the beach station at sentosa.. Took this two pics cause of the nice scenery behind.. haha..

On the tram.. On my way to siloso beach.. First time on this tram for me.. This shows how long i haven't been to sentosa already.. Lolx.. Say cheese..

Sally, Zhen & me.. Lolx..

Mischelle & me.. WOot.. *shy* Cause my figure not good.. =p

Actually, there were lotsa pple there.. Around 15 pple there.. But after we reached there we were all too busyenjoying ourselves playing v-ball, captains ball, etc.. Too much fun and we forgot about taking photos le.. At around 6.30pm, we went bath and got ready to go home.. Everyone was tired and burnt..

The ride home was a long, tiring one.. *tired but contented*

*This fairy tale ended at 11:47 AM*

Sunday, April 02, 2006

"force a smile ; blink away the tears
supposed to be strong
supposed to have no fears
but i`m finding it hard not to frown
if i'm such a strong person
why am i breaking down?"

"the best part abOut dancing in the rain is
that nO One can see the tears i've cried"

"I'm mad at myself fOr crying
i dOnt even remember the reasOn
but the tears keep flOwing
and they just wOnt stOp
i'm suppOsed tO be strOng
but everything's sO wrOng"

Things are just going so wrong in my life.. Everything is so wrong.. I hate my life now.. So many things had changed.. He had changed.. I've changed too.. I'm tired.. Tired of all these changes.. How good it'd be if things were the way they were 4 years ago.. I miss being pampered.. I miss being the priority in your life.. I miss those sweet seconday school days.. Now, everything is so different..

I'm tired.. Seem to be crying everyday recently.. I think i'm going to break down soon.. Really tired.. I know he'd never read me blog.. But just wanna tell him..

"My feeling for you had never changed.. I still love you as much as i did 4 years ago.. How about you? I really dunno.. Too many things had happened.. And there're some things that i cant forget no matter how hard i tried to.. And to be frank, i still feel insecure sometimes.. I hope you'd understand.. Cause that scar is still there.. I'm trying my best to forget.. But.. are you trying your best to help me forget? Sighs.. I really hope we can spend quality time together.. Not just quantity time.. Dont you realise that even though we're at home together.. You are always doing your own things.. In the past, we'd go out for late night strolls and chit chat.. I miss those days.. Sometimes, i need reassurances.. I want you to send me sweet smses & tell me you love me once in a while.."

*This fairy tale ended at 10:53 PM*