* The Fairytale of Pandagirl *

Monday, March 28, 2005

i'm gonna trust you one last time

After watching "Xin Ru Lai Shen Zhang".. he told me he's going out to Sun Plaza to meet Ziwei at mos burger.. i was feeling bored after he went out so i decided to go for a run.. after running for 5 mins, my appendix hurts.. so i slowed down to a jog.. never did i expect to see a familiar backview in front of me.. never did i expect to see him in front of me.. but my heart hurts.. cuz there's "her" walking next to him, holding on tightly to his arms.. my minds in a blur.. despite my hurting appendix.. i sprinted pass him and "her" and all the way back to his house.. (i was very disappointed that he never chased after me) i was crying so badly.. his hp was spoilt so i asked his brother to help me call "her" cuz i need to talk to him.. he told me not to think so much.. how can there be nothing when i saw it with i own eyes..? i hang up the phone..

I was so angry that i tore up all my artwork.. tore up all the efforts.. i wanted to pack up and leave.. but i wasn't in the mood for packing so i went straight out.. i loitered around.. crying.. walking aimlessly.. i really felt as if it was the end of the world.. then my phone started ringing.. wz, his parents and his brother started calling me again and again.. but i did not answer any of them... then he started smsing me...

wz:: please.. i'm going into NS soon le.. please let me show you.. please let me show you.. please..
wz:: please.. listen to me.. i really tired le. please answer my calls..
wf:: show me wat? show me how sweet you and her are together? show me how stupid i am to believe you again and again while you hurt me again and again?
wz:: hai.. whatever ba.. if you now staying at your fren there then stay ba..
wf:: i tonight sleep on the streets.. you happy?
wz:: this time let me show you.. i will break every connection with her.. believe me..
wf:: you said this to me so many time le.. how you want me to do? msg her and tell her not to contact you anymore? then confirm you two will never contact again?
wz:: i smash away my sim card.. stay at home everyday.. until i go NS.. not a step out.. please come back.. i'll show you..
wf:: but what's the use if your heart is not with me? you dare to say you dun like her?
wz:: please.. i already know i and her is impossible de.. just now what you see is we going to SP.. my leg pain.. she just help me nia.. i swear.. if i dun love you.. i will not let you stay.. n now so worried.. please.. come back home..
wf:: how do i know what you said is tru? tot you say go meet ziwei? why end up with her? why lie to me? you dare to let me sms her and tell her not to contact you?
wz:: do what you want.. come home please..

In the end i realli msg the gurl telling her i felt very insecure and asked her not to contact him anymore.. she never replied.. i dunno whether she got the msg.. then his dad found me.. and drove me back home.. whn i reached home he gave me a kiss.. and say he'll keep his words this time de... and he did tore up his sim card.. though i dun wan him to do so de.. i guess i'll trust him this last time le.. hope he'll not disappoint me again..

*This fairy tale ended at 5:27 PM*