* The Fairytale of Pandagirl *

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

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(.+.*."I'm One sTep clOser tO my dreAm nOw".*.+.)

For a very very long time, after the incident, i've been living in fear.. The past seems to keep haunting me.. And i cant seem to break free from it.. No matter how happy my days are, no matter how hard i try, no matter how good he is to me, the fear still exist.. I cant seems to forget the things that had happened.. The hurts, the tears, the sorrow, the pain, the devastation, the loneliness.. I had so much difficulties in trusting people again.. In fear of being hurt again..

But, i guess it's time for me to breakthrough.. Thanks, dear.. Thanks for your reassurance again and again.. Today, after i read something, i felt very depressed.. *not going to go into details* The thought of the 'he' may be refering to him, my heart starts to hurt.. *sighs* Then dear and i was msg-ing, i guess he notice that i was sad and he smsed and asked me why i sounded so sad and asked me what happened.. Then i told him the truth lor.. Sooner or later he'll also find out de.. No point hiding..

Then he replied and said he was sorry for what happened in the past and he'll never ever leave me again.. He told me that what happen in the past is all over le.. There's nothing anymore.. It's none of his business anymore and he just wanna be with me now and really loves me.. *smiles*

I guess it's time for me to break through the walls that is stopping me from being happy.. I'm not gonna let such things affect me anymore.. I just wanna work hard to be a good girlfriend and bring him tons of happiness.. And i just wanna stay by his side forever and ever.. Till death do us part.. I love you so much, dear.. And i know you love me too.. Thanks for your reassurances and all the things you've done to make me happy.. =) Love you.. Muacks..

*This fairy tale ended at 11:47 AM*