* The Fairytale of Pandagirl *

Thursday, May 19, 2005

Life Life To The Fullest!

Recently i realised that nowadays, many teenagers have alot of negative thoughts about life.. I guess i sorta understand these problems cause i've been through that phase of life too (but i cant say i'm totally right).. Some teenagers nowadays seems to have very pessimistic thinking about life once they come upon obstacle(s) in their life.. No matter it's hurts from family, friends, relationship,etc, once they've met disappointment or hurts, they'll think very negatively and may even have suicidal thoughts..

I admit i was one of them.. After meeting setbacks in my life, there was a period of time when i also have such thoughts.. At tat time, i kept wondering.. "Why is the world such a horrible place to live in? Why are there only pain, sorrows, darkness and hurts? Am i borned to suffer? Why must i be borned into this terrible world? If i die, wouldn't there be no more pain?" I did have suicidal thoughts at that point of time.. But, i guess if i really commited suicide at that point of time, i wouldn't have realised there are also many happy things that could happened to me..! If i've really died at that point of time, i wouldn't be able to enjoy so many beautiful things in life! Therefore, i'm really glad that i've lived on.. I'm glad that, i've overcome those negative thoughts..~!

Some people may meet setbacks in relationship.. So what? Along your path in love, you may meet a few wrong people, but in the end, you'll find your Mr. Right de.. Why give up after setbacks when there's more choices waiting for you..? As long as you've done your best in fighting for what you want.. That's it! No need for regrets.. I feel that as long as you still have feelings for that person, dun give up.! If that person is touched by your feelings for him/her, then it'll be a happy ending.. If not, just get on with life.. Sooner or later, your Mr. Right will turn up somewhere..

Some people may have grown up in a broken family.. Again, so what? In our society now, many teenagers grew up in a broken family.. Me too.. I've grew up in a broken family too.. I used to feel ashamed of my past so i told no one about it.. Only my closest ones knows.. I grew up without a father.. It had always been my mother, my sister, my brother and me depending on one another.. "father" is a unfamiliar word to me.. Since i was young, i only had my mother.. But she was always busy trying to earn a living to support us.. So i had to be independent and depend on myself.. Childhood was a very lonely phase of life for me.. I had no father.. Until he finally appeared out of nowhere when i was in about Pri.5-6.. Nevertheless, even till now, sometimes i still feel like he's a stranger to me.. When i'm matured enough, my mom told me actually my father left us for another woman.. He had an extra-marital affair.. I guess maybe i'm still angry with him for making us suffer so much without him, that's why, i haven fully accepted him..

But, this doesn't mean that i have the right to blame the world for everything, this doesn't mean i can blame all my setbacks on my family background.. I cant possibly say that because i'm from a broken family, i'll never be happy, i'll never be successful.. Whether a person can be happy or successful, depends on their mentality.. If a person keeps thinking that he/she will never be happy, of course he/ she will never be happy.. so it's up to yourself to create your own future, cause, your future lies in your hands..

No matter what, there'll always be people in this world who's concern about you.. Be it your friends, your siblings, your family, or your love ones.. Also, there are people in this world whom you care about.. Please spare a thought for them.. Dun waste your youth away being binded in such negative thoughts about life.. Dun disappointed those you care for and those who care for you..! Most importantly, dun disappoint yourself.. This is your life.. Life it to the fullest, so you'll have no regrets..~!

*This fairy tale ended at 4:04 PM*