* The Fairytale of Pandagirl *

Friday, November 25, 2005

Too many things happened within these few days.. Too many.. And i dunno how to handle them.. I'm tired.. Really tired le.. Too many different emotions flooding me within these few days.. Seeing things i thought i'd never see again.. I really thought that incident is over already, i really thought promises would be kept.. But....

I dun wanna hear promises from anyone ever again.. Cause promises are always broken.. And i dun wanna have hopes and end up being disappointed again.. Broken promises hurt.. My heart feel numb already.. I dunno wat sort of feeling i'm having right now.. I just feel so weird.. And i dun wanna think about anything ever again le..

Everything just leave it to fate.. I dun believe the quote that "our future is within our hands' anymore.. Cause i've tried and tried so hard.. Worked and worked so hard.. Yet, my future seems so far away from me.. I really hope my dream would come true.. Really hope to walk down the aisle with him.. To live happily every after.. To travel around the world together.. To live in a farm together.. I really hope that all these things will happen.. But, will they? I'm not sure anymore..

Someone claimed to be my friend.. That someone told me that friend would never hurt each other and i believed.. Yet, that someone is the one who hurt me the most.. What are friends? I feel really disappointed..

I'm tired.. So damn tired of everything.. I don't want to care about anything anymore.. I just wanna be me.. I wanna rewind these 3 days.. I wanna rewind seeing the things i dun wanna see.. I wanna rewind every bad incidents these 3 days.. Can i?

So lost and confused and tired...

*This fairy tale ended at 2:39 PM*