* The Fairytale of Pandagirl *

Thursday, July 13, 2006

It's the worst day of my life.. Woke up from a really really terrible nightmare and i kept crying and crying.. When i'm crying so many rubbish thoughts keep coming to my mind and they made me cry even harder.. My head is hurting, my heart is hurting, and it's so painful.. I cant handle all the pain anymore..

I feel like a loser.. Why am i so weak? Why do i always wanna hid from the reality? Why am i such a lousy person? I feel so lonely..

I wished to fall really really sick.. The best is that i could lose those unhappy memories.. Only leaving the happy memories.. All those bad times had caused me to change into what i am today and i hate myself so much..

I miss the happy girl who's so hyper and without worries and cheerful.. In the past, she believes in fairytales, waiting patiently for her prince to appear.. But now, she've gone through so many unhappy things, so many hurts and so much pain.. And all these had made her change.. She started to doubt love.. And as she go thru more and more hurt, the old fang gradually disappeared from this world.. I don't know how to find her back.. I miss her so much.. I wanna be smiling and happy everyday, but..

If i could erase and forget those unhappy memories.. IF ONLY

My heart is dripping blood.. My head is hurting so much.. I really dunno what to do.. Tears just kept flowing and flowing.. i'm really tired, depressed and in pain.. God, help me please.. I dun wanna feel these pain..

*This fairy tale ended at 1:56 PM*