* The Fairytale of Pandagirl *

Saturday, February 03, 2007

Marketing report & presentation is over..
Drawing is finally over too.. So relieved.. *phew*
I'm actually quite please with most of my drawings, except the turntables..

Now, left with Image synthesis final assignment on this coming monday, and rendering assignment 3 & character animation assignment 3 which is due this coming friday.. After which, it's followed by SP4.. Gosh! So many things to do.. So little time.. *sighs*

Rainbow! Can you spot it?

It's so pretty.. Too bad pretty things in life are all short-termed.. Hais..

Photo i used for my attachment CV

Me!

Sighs.. Gained so much weight lately.. Especially during the week when i'm rushing my drawing assignment.. Kept eating and eating while drawing.. Sweets, sushi, fishballs, chocolates, suppers.. Once i'm stress, i'll keep eating and eating.. Sighs..

Gosh! I'm so fat now..

Time to start eating less carbos and lose weight!
I wanna look pretty for New Year...

Sighs..

So many things to do.. So little time.. Yet i'm not doing anything.. I haven touched anything else ever since after the drawing assignment.. I kept telling myself "today i gotta finish character animation", "today i gotta finish the texturing", but when i open the files in maya, my mind is in a blank.. I'll stare at stare and my half done assignments in a daze, and den close maya with no progress.. *sighs*

I really dunno what the hell is wrong with me.. I keep thinking about my assignments, thinking of the movements for my animation, thinking of the colours and textures i wan for my fruits.. I know clearly what i wan.. But, i just cant seem to put them into action..

What's wrong with me?
Why have i become like this?

I ain't like this in the past.. In my secondary years, everything i do i will do my best.. I used to be a perfectionist.. Be it in my CCAs or studies, i'll do my best in everything, wanting to be the best of the best.. I used to be very competitive, not wanting to lose to anyone... I'm a CCA leader, i'm always the top few in my cohot.. I used to exel in sports, leadership, studies and art then..

But now.......
I'm NOTHING!

I'm such a slacker now.. Everything i do, i have the damn mentality that 'i just wanna get it over and done with'.. I seemed to have lost that "fire" in me.. And i dunno how i could get that "fire" burning again.. Why have i changed so much?

Is "that" decision i made that changed everything about me?
If i've not taken "that" step, will everything be different now?

I feel so lost.. I've lost my direction in life..

*Sighs*

*This fairy tale ended at 7:57 PM*